Day 8 & 9

Welp, Sorry again... I'm really trying not to slack but it is so hard!! So yesterday was WAY better than day 7.  I woke up and went to spin-n-sculpt (taught by my lovely roomie) and felt awesome after.  It was really challenging but it felt good.  Then I had my stats test and I got a 104!! I was so proud of myself.  Then I kept on studying for my accounting test (grade still TBD) and had to come back for duty right after so no more workout.  The food part of the day was ok but not my best.  My lovely boyfriend, Daniel, knows how much I LOVE Dr. Pepper and decided to surprise me with one at dinner (he didnt know how serious I was about the no soda thing, but he does now).  Duty was fine and then after I got to spend a little time with my love.

Today was really really great!! I woke up to breakfast with my roomie and we just enjoyed some good conversation (and pancakes).  Then I went to class to find out my test grade and they werent graded yet so that was sad but then I got some extra time all to myself between classes to chill a little.  Went to tax and then it was all weekend!! I got to spend some quality time with Daniel today.  We went to Valle Crucis Park to hammock but it was really cold and windy so we ended up just coming back to my dorm and watching house hunters.  It was so fun.  Sometimes I dream that the houses they are looking at are my choice and have an unlimited budget.  I found the perfect house tonight for $415,000.  It was a 5 bedroom, 4 bath with an updated kitchen (double oven and island), a HUGE walk in closet, an awesome master suite and just a really adorable house.  Luckily I have my dad to build me my dream house when im ready :) Anyway, then I ran some errands and went to the grocery store.  I spent more than I wanted to but I got lots of healthy options and im really excited about packing my lunch in the upcoming weeks.  Then I went to Panera for dinner (my favorite) and got some soup to match the lovely winter weather we are having.  Watched a few more episodes of house hunters and then went over to Daniel's house to watch madmen with the guys.  I miss that so much and I am so glad I got to tonight and will get to again tomorrow.  Unfortunately, no work out today.  Possibly tomorrow but I have to work early in the morning, followed by watch the app game with Daniel, and setup, and madmen, so not sure... might be Sunday.  However, I am not using this time to counteract what I have already accomplished by eating crap.  Im keeping that good while I miss a few workouts.  Check back tomorrow for more news (and the App score)!

Day 7

Today has really had some up and downs.  The ups?  According to my wii I have lost 4 lbs :) and I think I did really well on my finance test this morning.  Also, Church was really great tonight. 

The downs?  I havent done any sort of working out today.  I didnt get to run or go to the gym because I have 2 major tests tomorrow.  Stats 2 and Intermediate Accounting 2.  No fun.  Also, my Pastor hit it dead on when he said "have you ever just felt like you are walking alone?"  Well I do.  I know I have tons of people surrounding me all the time and they are there to listen but I just feel like our conversations are so superficial.  It's a hi, how are you? but no one really cares how you actually are.  See I've been really stressed out lately, not just because of the new workout that I am doing but from school, my job as an RA, my job at Hound Ears (which I havent been to in over a week), and tutoring (in a subject that I dont remember) plus balancing Praise Team and all of our obligations and Church.  Its very overwhelming.  I guess sometimes I just want someone to notice that im not myself and ask me if im ok and tell me that everything will be ok.  Maybe even just let me cry because I dont think it will be ok.  But no one seems to notice.  Even the most important people in my life just seem like its all ok.  Then I come home and someone has vandalized my locator board (my RA board telling my residents where I am).  I know I am strong and I can overcome things but sometimes I just want someone to want to know what is happening, you know? 

So my day... not so good overall.  Tomorrow hopefully will be better but its looking like the same thing over again.  2 tests, lots of studying, hopefully a morning workout, and then on duty...

Day 6

Hey Blog readers! Sorry about yesterday.  I remembered at 11:30pm that I hadnt finished my tax homework and I wasnt able to blog last night.  But I will fill you in on my yesterday.  I went for a run with my sister, Leslie, which was so fun.  I havent worked out with her since we played lacrosse together like 6-7 years ago.  We ran from Los Arcoiris all the way to the Wendy's light and back in about 16 minutes.  Right as we started making our way back it started raining and we got drenched!  But it was really fun.  We ended up having to come back to my place and change before dinner and Praise Team (the best thing in the world).  So I think I have told you all that I am on the Praise Team at my church.  We practice every Tuesday night and just have fun enjoying each others' company.  Last night we did something a little different and we just got together to talk and then went for pizza.  I know what youre thinking, "Oh no, dont eat that!" But its ok.  I only ate 1 cheese stick and refrained from the rest.  Then after that I went to the gym.  It was my first night going without Josh so I was a little nervous but he left me a voicemail of everything to do.  Stupid me deleted the message after I listened to it and I think I forgot to do 1 of the exercises but all in all I did really well.  I pushed myself to do what he would make me do even though I totally could have just slacked off.  And in turn, my arms still hurt, along with my abs, and my legs... totally body workout.  All in all yesterday was a great day.  Today though... not so much. More info in my next post after the day has finished!

Day 5

Wow, Almost a week... almost... Today I started to get a blister on my foot (Josh says because my shoes suck) and blisters on my hands (stupid weights).  They hurt.  And my upper body is so sore from yesterday and guess what? Josh made me do triceps and chest stuff today... SO SORE!  But, I am starting to feel like me.  Like the girl Junior year who went to the gym every day after school to work out.  It's really tough... and I want my body to stop making me hurt and toughen up already but I know it will.  I'm just gonna stay motivated and push through it. 

In other news, I had the first half of my Finance test today and I think I did awesome! The second part is Wednesday so I might know by Friday how I did.  And now I have an intermediate Accounting test to start studying for... this week should be interesting.  I hope you all have a wonderful week.  And remember, you have to start somewhere!  So why not today?

Day 4

Wow, what can I say about today.  IT WAS AWESOME!! It started just the way I wanted with an awesome word from our guest, Pastor Jeff Smith.  I am so thankful that my promise is greater than my pain.  I will keep pursuing my promise cause I want it! It was truly a blessing to be in service this morning at Cornerstone Summit.  If you dont know me, I have been attending Cornerstone Summit for a little over 2 years now and I am on the Praise and Worship team.  It really is like my second family and I love everything about it.  When im not at service I feel like I have missed out, and I probably have because our Pastor, Reggie Hunt, has such an anointing on his life.  After service I decided to skip the expensive meal and just come eat leftovers.  So Chicken with a side of strawberries and a banana was perfect.  I also realized that I do not eat enough of my leftovers because I threw away so much food today from the past coupe weeks.  I need to get better about that.  Then I met with my friend Mallory to help her with stats.  I was really doubting that I could get everything that I wanted to get done today in before I was on duty but somehow it all worked out.  I did my laundry, vacuumed, did the dishes all while she was there and then after she left I went for a run.  Same track as Friday but I really pushed myself to run more.  I ran almost the whole thing this time.  And I set a time goal and completed it!  Under 20 minutes from the winkler stairs and back.  Then I did some much needed studying and folded my warm laundry before going to meet Josh at the gym.  I was really excited about being back in the gym but also nervous for what he was going to make me do.  It really wasnt that bad.  We did shoulders and back today, along with abs and pull ups (with the help of the machine).  I was really tired when I got back though but I had to keep going and tutor my friend and then guess what? Duty... again... for the third night in a row.  Shocker!

So I have some pictures for your viewing pleasure so you get a better understanding of where I am coming from.  The first one is a Picture of me, my older sister, and mom my.  This was my junior year of High School and I was so comfortable with my self and my body.  My jeans fit so great and I just loved the way I looked.  The second picture is also from Junior Year but it was at the very end at prom.  That was a great night and every better, I felt awesome and skinny and beautiful in my dress.  The last picture is probably accurate of what I would look like if I were to put on that dress again.  I was big, bloated, and so unattractive.  I was uncomfortable with myself and who I was and im just trying to find my way back to the Junior Year me (or smaller).  So here goes nothing!

Day 3

Well today got off to an interesting start by being woken up at 1:45 am for an incident.  See, Im an RA and that is just my luck.  So after the incident was over it took me a little while to go to sleep... probably around 3:45 or so. Then, because im just such a great RA, I made breakfast for all my residents.  I only had about 8 come, which is understandable because it was from 9-11am and there was a home football game today.  So anyway, I made pancakes and muffins for then and also had a choice of chocolate chip, strawberry, blueberry, or banana in the pancakes.  A lot of them decided to eat a chocolate chip pancake with strawberries on top.  So then I tried it and they were delicious! I ended up eating 2 around 10:45.  And about 9:15 when I thought no one was going to show up I had a strawberry muffin and some strawberries.  So my morning wasnt too awesome as far as the eating goes.  But I decided to count my breakfast as lunch too since it was at awkward times.  Then, before the awesome Appalachian State Game against Chattanooga (final score 14-12 App) I decided to take a nap because I was soooo tired.  Meaning, no workout for me today :(  My legs are still very sore from working out with Josh and my abs and lower back are kind of sore from running yesterday.  I know, Im a wimp right now, but Josh would tell you that everyone has to start somewhere.  So tomorrow will be better!  Im planning on running in the afternoon and the doing homework all evening.  Sometimes there just isnt enough time in a day to get everything you want to do accomplished.  Im working on that and many other things. 

Day 2

So technically, today is day 2.  I just posted day 1 to let you know what happened yesterday and how I was feeling when this whole thing started.  So as for day 1 exercise... it kicked my butt!  My legs are really sore (even more so now after running) and I found out my arms are super weak.  But it is ok! Josh Jirgal told me yesterday that everyone has to start somewhere! SO TRUE! I mean, why did I think I could just go in the weight room and be able to lift like I used to... wrong!  So anyway, today was great.  I feel really motivated about keeping this going!  However, I stepped on a scale today and almost cried.  My wii told me that it had been 213 days since I had last used the Fit (which is always how I weigh).  So yeah... rude awakening as to just how bad off I really am.  But you know what, I'm not gonna let it get me down.  I also ran outside today for the first time as an App student.  It was so fun! I ended up running from Winkler hall down stadium drive and all the way to the hardees light after the convocation, then I walked around the back side of the convocation center, and then ran to the bottom of stadium drive.  And yes, I walked up stadium to Winkler.  Josh told me I need to run a mile a day for a week so I am going to try really hard to do it. But for not running in a probably a year (long distance), I think today went pretty well.  Tomorrow there is an App State Football game so hopefully I will be able to get a mile in sometime... 

Day 1

Hello Readers! 

Today when I woke up I didnt feel like me.  I felt heavy and unmotivated and really bad about the person I have let myself become over the past few years.  My Junior year of high school I was working out, eating right and lost about 25 lbs. because of it.  Since then I have gained all 25 lbs. back and probably gained an additional 20 lbs.  For all of you out there they have weight problems, you know how it feels to not feel right about your body and have low self-esteem.  Well all that changes today!  Some of us think, well I'm already too fat and I cant change, or I'm just too lazy, or I don't need to be in shape, but that isn't true!  You can do it if you want it bad enough, and today I woke up and realized that I want it, BAD!  I am starting this blog to let all of you out there know that it is possible and I am going to prove it.  I talked to my good friend Josh Jirgal and he is going to help me get the exercise part down, and I'm using the fundamentals that my friend Halee Hartley taught me about eating.  I am so blessed to have people in my life that are supporting me and encouraging me through this! So down at the bottom of this blog I am going to be posting everything I eat (or drink, if it is not water) in a calendar and everything I do for exercise in another calendar.  This way you can know how to do it yourself if you want, or give me pointers on how to eat better if you are already in great shape.  I will also be updating you on weight loss during my daily posts (if I weigh that day).  Like I said, it is going to be hard, but I'm not gonna give up!  This is my life and I want to live it to the fullest!