Today has really had some up and downs. The ups? According to my wii I have lost 4 lbs :) and I think I did really well on my finance test this morning. Also, Church was really great tonight.
The downs? I havent done any sort of working out today. I didnt get to run or go to the gym because I have 2 major tests tomorrow. Stats 2 and Intermediate Accounting 2. No fun. Also, my Pastor hit it dead on when he said "have you ever just felt like you are walking alone?" Well I do. I know I have tons of people surrounding me all the time and they are there to listen but I just feel like our conversations are so superficial. It's a hi, how are you? but no one really cares how you actually are. See I've been really stressed out lately, not just because of the new workout that I am doing but from school, my job as an RA, my job at Hound Ears (which I havent been to in over a week), and tutoring (in a subject that I dont remember) plus balancing Praise Team and all of our obligations and Church. Its very overwhelming. I guess sometimes I just want someone to notice that im not myself and ask me if im ok and tell me that everything will be ok. Maybe even just let me cry because I dont think it will be ok. But no one seems to notice. Even the most important people in my life just seem like its all ok. Then I come home and someone has vandalized my locator board (my RA board telling my residents where I am). I know I am strong and I can overcome things but sometimes I just want someone to want to know what is happening, you know?
So my day... not so good overall. Tomorrow hopefully will be better but its looking like the same thing over again. 2 tests, lots of studying, hopefully a morning workout, and then on duty...
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