Day 4

Wow, what can I say about today.  IT WAS AWESOME!! It started just the way I wanted with an awesome word from our guest, Pastor Jeff Smith.  I am so thankful that my promise is greater than my pain.  I will keep pursuing my promise cause I want it! It was truly a blessing to be in service this morning at Cornerstone Summit.  If you dont know me, I have been attending Cornerstone Summit for a little over 2 years now and I am on the Praise and Worship team.  It really is like my second family and I love everything about it.  When im not at service I feel like I have missed out, and I probably have because our Pastor, Reggie Hunt, has such an anointing on his life.  After service I decided to skip the expensive meal and just come eat leftovers.  So Chicken with a side of strawberries and a banana was perfect.  I also realized that I do not eat enough of my leftovers because I threw away so much food today from the past coupe weeks.  I need to get better about that.  Then I met with my friend Mallory to help her with stats.  I was really doubting that I could get everything that I wanted to get done today in before I was on duty but somehow it all worked out.  I did my laundry, vacuumed, did the dishes all while she was there and then after she left I went for a run.  Same track as Friday but I really pushed myself to run more.  I ran almost the whole thing this time.  And I set a time goal and completed it!  Under 20 minutes from the winkler stairs and back.  Then I did some much needed studying and folded my warm laundry before going to meet Josh at the gym.  I was really excited about being back in the gym but also nervous for what he was going to make me do.  It really wasnt that bad.  We did shoulders and back today, along with abs and pull ups (with the help of the machine).  I was really tired when I got back though but I had to keep going and tutor my friend and then guess what? Duty... again... for the third night in a row.  Shocker!

So I have some pictures for your viewing pleasure so you get a better understanding of where I am coming from.  The first one is a Picture of me, my older sister, and mom my.  This was my junior year of High School and I was so comfortable with my self and my body.  My jeans fit so great and I just loved the way I looked.  The second picture is also from Junior Year but it was at the very end at prom.  That was a great night and every better, I felt awesome and skinny and beautiful in my dress.  The last picture is probably accurate of what I would look like if I were to put on that dress again.  I was big, bloated, and so unattractive.  I was uncomfortable with myself and who I was and im just trying to find my way back to the Junior Year me (or smaller).  So here goes nothing!